It's hard to stay positive when there really isn't anything to help keep you there.
Between having no one hang out with me, no girls wanting to come near me, the constant paranoia and fear that my boss will lose my ass for whatever reason, and now the possibility that I might actually be getting the hereditary fucking ailment that psoriasis is, oh yeah… things are just fucking dandy around here.
Seriously… the psoriasis schtick has me pissed off.
I'm not very attractive. I'm aware of that. I've had to live with that fucking fact for most of my life. Not getting girls really ever more or less confirms that the moment you step out of the door.
But if I wasn't very attractive in the first place then watch the possibility of psoriasis sink that down further.
Granted, I'm not saying that all women are shallow and only think of looks.
But there are a lot. And if I end up having it, there's really nothing I can do about it.
Short of treating it.
And maybe throwing myself off of a bridge.
I think I'm becoming more withdrawn.
Really… I do.