I cannot stress how tired I am today.
I was supposed to go and shoot at Wine Banq for a job that wouldn’t have sold a thing on TitoMedia (that job looks like it’ll go nowhere for me… I’m not a social photographer) but I pretty much just collapsed and ran out of energy today.
You have no idea how tired I am as I write this up.
I was tired when I wrote the other blog up about the other night, but I do it for the possible two or three people that very well might actually read my blog.
And myself.
But yeah, this animation is beginning to pull a lot out of me. Between rigging cameras in scenes and setting renders up and knowing I have to record a dummy audio track and then a real audio track and then work on music and then edit the thing together… and shit, I’d like to get this thing done within two weeks!
And then there’s the lack of jobs.
I apply, I get no response. I apply to something else, I get no response.
In the case where I do get a response, I’m either not qualified enough, not what they’re looking for, or called for an interview which after it’s done, I’m told that I’m not what they’re looking for or I’m over qualified. Shit, you know… I’m 23… I may have a lot of technical skills and a desire to want to learn everything, but fuck… I can’t exactly be over-qualified for a job unless that job involves cleaning toilets.
Hell, I’m probably not qualified enough to clean toilets.
It’s not like I’m Kenny.
With a sigh, I’ll probably set up another render and then flop off to bed in a few minutes.
I’m tired. My muscles ache. My stomach hurts. The whole world seems to have a bone to pick with my in the field of being employed. My head seems heavier than it probably should be and I just don’t seem to be getting anywhere.
I need to finish this film. I have to finish it.
It’s my film. My baby. I will finish it.