Depression | Leigh :) Stark

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I give up.

Tuesday, April 8th, 2008

I am so sick to death of having random bullshit occur to me. What is this? "Dump shit on Leigh" week? What the fuck?!

I give up. I just fucking give up.

This home — this life — is a fucking nightmare.

I don't get it. I'm nice to everyone. I help everyone out. This is part of my nature. For all intents & purposes, I am — it would seem — a good person.

And yet I just can't get a break.

It's as if karma is allergic to me and is donating all my good luck to the assholes of the world. While the pricks and the schmucks and the assholes get to dance around like loose-fucking-half wits impressing every second girl with their bullshit charming wit, I am left to my own lonely self trying to work out what the fuck is wrong with this world.

I really give up.

If you want to know why, ask me.

This has got to be the beginning of a nervous-fucking-break down.

If it isn't, then I must be in one of Dante's circles of hell.

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Trying to stay positive

Wednesday, February 6th, 2008

It's hard to stay positive when there really isn't anything to help keep you there.

Between having no one hang out with me, no girls wanting to come near me, the constant paranoia and fear that my boss will lose my ass for whatever reason, and now the possibility that I might actually be getting the hereditary fucking ailment that psoriasis is, oh yeah… things are just fucking dandy around here.

Seriously… the psoriasis schtick has me pissed off.

I'm not very attractive. I'm aware of that. I've had to live with that fucking fact for most of my life. Not getting girls really ever more or less confirms that the moment you step out of the door.

But if I wasn't very attractive in the first place then watch the possibility of psoriasis sink that down further.

Granted, I'm not saying that all women are shallow and only think of looks.

But there are a lot. And if I end up having it, there's really nothing I can do about it.

Short of treating it.

And maybe throwing myself off of a bridge.

I think I'm becoming more withdrawn.

Really… I do.

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I am completely over everything.

Monday, January 7th, 2008

I'm over the shit luck I find myself in.

I'm over always stepping into messes.

I'm over this shit.

This is my life.

And I'm fucking over it.

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It’s The Most De-pressing Time Of The Year…

Saturday, December 15th, 2007

It's the most depressing time of the year
Everyone's touchy-feely
But I'm pretty pissed off that it isn't meeeeeee
It's the most depressing time of the year

Seriously. Being considered sweet or being nice to everyone and spreading cheer and anything I do seems to do nothing to break the deadlock of a lack of any intimacy in my life.

I just want to throw myself out of a window at the moment.

It's a shame that I live on the ground floor and have bars & fly-net on my windows otherwise I'd seriously be in the mood for it right about now.